what is up with them? it is so not my fault that margaux is not in dance. why put the blame on me. all i said last time is that mr raj can be unreasonable and will scold you for small stuff like smiling while dancing a part where youre not supposed to and that dance is tiring. then they accuse me of not being supportive of margaux joining dance. then when i DO support her, they say, it is better that she join track. i hate it. margaux made the choice. not me. margaux said that she didnt really like mr raj. not me. margaux can appeal to dance again. why doesnt she. always putting the blame on me. it all started bcos i said that my dance jrs thought they were so great although they couldnt master a few steps in 15 minutes. (many agree too.)then my dad had to say 'yah, cos margaux isnt there' and i said 'not necessarily'. maybe she could master the steps. BECAUSE I TAUGHT THEM TO HER LAST YEAR DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES. it sucks. then my parents go on abt me not supporting margaux's decision to join dance, blowing everything out of proportion. it really sucks. to make things worse, margaux has to compete with me at home on flexibility. she is in track for goodness sake. she likes dance so much, appeal lah. she insists she is just as or actually BETTER than me. she never admits that sometimes, i am better than her. it has always been like that. dont compare with her. it isnt fair. then my mom can compare my results with her. it so sucks. i hate it. PSLE. she got 256+2. i got 255+3. same aggregate score considering we both went to NY where they count in the HCL scores. my mother and father still think that she has this edge over me. especially in chinese. she is like the chinese master. at least that is what the extended family see. who cares. maybe it is the interest. i dont have much interest in chinese stuff as margaux but i do get better chinese results. I HATE IT. why is it that they tell me not to compare when in their minds they are always comparing me and margaux? and it turns out that most of the time, margaux is better. why cant they just stop comparing for a while and let me be? i hate it. it is very tiring.